No 3: SOAP
IMAGE BY KARA WARDEN
KARA WARDEN
i slide into my bathtub
readying to drown myself
wait
the body is not ready to be found floating, pale, and with purple lips
the cheeks are not yet sunken and the calves are not yet curved correctly
not to mention, before entering the tub for the last time
her arms must slip into a cream nightgown with three ivory buttons
and her legs
must peek out
shyly
from the bottom
and blood must be let, in a thin and glorious trickle, from her wrists
this is to make the water the color of a cherub’s cheeks!
so, because it is not yet time for drowning, i let my lips linger above the water’s surface
pass my palm over the outline of my ribs
discovering the rhythm of my ribcage
I poke shy fingers into crimson rounds
And wonder
what would it be like to run a tongue on my nipples?
or to intertwine legs with mine
or to wrap two
good strong hands
around my neck
and watch me writhe in pink water
oh what fun
it would be
to be my oppressor
to torture the little girl that I am
to be my voyeur
i would unclurl her delicate fingers from my arm
avoid her seeking blue eyed gaze
only when her corpse floated with thin legs atop a tub of crimson water
would I caress her
and
whisper in her pink ears
that she need enjoy her baths
I would wring out her hair
combing it with my new fingers
and softly say
I did not know you were drowning
because I was busy bathing
in a cream nightgown